Buy the dress!! It's SO good!! 🤌🏼

They allowed me to honor my holy shrine and to release the negative self-talk that had crippled me my entire life.

It was a game-changer.

And really fun at the same time 😜

It took me a long time to get comfortable with someone's tongue between my thighs - especially when reciprocation was taken off the table.

I'm grateful for the person who gave me that opportunity to come home to myself.

Pleasure should be give and take.

It doesn't matter if you're a sub, domme, switch or vanilla as cake.

YOU ARE WORTHY OF PLEASURE.

It took me awhile to fully believe I was worthy of pleasure - not just in the moment - but to change my mindset from one of not being worthy - to becoming a SEXUAL GODDESS hellbent on discovering forms of pleasure which I previously didn't give a second thought to unless I was on the giving end.

I remember the first time a friend drunkenly went down on me - no reciprocation required.

I was nervous.
I fidgeted.
I started to disassociate.

Feeling my apprehension, she said "Relax. You're safe. You deserve pleasure."

And for the first time in my life, I believed it.

Most associate "sexual awakenings" with your teenage years - but I was 41.

I was coming out of my shell and into my confidence and starting to explore my bisexuality all at the same time.

And it was beautiful.

It took me longer to associate body acceptance with my desire for my own pleasure - but the two really went hand in hand.

It took me a long time to realize WHY.

Part of it was clearly because no one was advocating for my pleasure - if I wasn't going to advocate for myself, he sure as hell wasn't going to. I mean, why would he when he was used to having me 100% devoted to HIS PLEASURE?

The end goal was always HIS pleasure.

I would disassociate and go into some fantasy porn world in my head, pretending I was someone else. I would moan and fake orgasms and, once finished, roll over and quietly masturbate after I was sure he had fallen asleep.

I've always been a very sexual person - but it wasn't until my early 40's that I learned how to ACCEPT pleasure.

I was always the giver - giving, giving, giving to my lover and never expecting (or even desiring) anything in return.

Thank you gorgeous!! 🥰😘

So cool! I'm an audiophile so this pattern was made for me 🤗

Such a hottie!! 😻