Smol. 🤭

Omg this is too cute!! Thank you!

Though I have no plans on logging out of this account, I've already logged out of all my messaging apps (Discord/telegram). Feel free to message here or comment I dunno. But I don't intend on using this account really all to often. Frankly I mostly just scroll here for the art. See y'all around. ✌️

Here's to a better future, for all of us! If you need to take this as a time to look inward and question yourself and your stances, do so! Though it can be confusing, the conclusions you draw are what make you who you are at the end of the day.

A little 300 character box can't contain enough space to put it all into words so. I'll just say I'm sorry and hope on the off chance someone needed to see/hear me say it sees this.

I am sorry though. I'm sorry that I couldn't truly be Lemon, I'm sorry I couldn't be Kit. There's a million other things I ought to be sorry for as well, I'm not perfect. I've said things, I've talked shit amongst though I thought I could trust. I'm human too.

I look forward to the day where I look back at all this and go "Wow. That certainly was a time huh?" I'll look back at all the fan art, all the channels I spawned, all the accomplishments. "I did a 203 off cuff because I made a flippant promise?" I can't wait. I'll be a much better person then.

Though I'm not sure how my happiness will come to me next, I'm confident that I'll find it. I'm confident that I'll have those bonds, I'm confident I'll have the people in my life that could never let me go. I'm confident that I'll live out my life with purpose, with a sense of true self.

If you actually read all of this, wow. You're a little crazy, thanks ig? All of that said, I'm doing incredibly well. Though I am a bit sad still looking back at it all, it still has made me a stronger person. I'm confident in my abilities, both as a content creator and as a human on this planet.

I'm going to pursue content creation again in another light, I almost decided to share it here (And I actually did share it here but I'm certain only a few saw it) but ultimately I decided to just let this die. I'm excited to inject more of who I actually am into my content rather than fitting in.

I just hope that the impact I had on people's lives stay strong, and that the successes I had a hand in don't tarnish. I really did pour everything into my content creation career. I am incredibly proud of the influence and amount of people I've assisted, though at times I was incredibly bitter.

I've not really spoken out about this much due to the context being a little too blatant with current events. (Breakups, friend groups breaking apart, etc). But I feel like enough time has passed to where there won't be bad vibes about it all now. It is what it is, I feel like we've all moved on.

The love was real, the bonds were real while they lasted in the times that they did. But it just takes me back to those days when I was moving during middle school and the realization that if you're not in class with your friends, most people won't make an effort to keep that bond. It's just natural

Online relations are valid, don't get me wrong. I'm not out here saying that this would have been bad for everyone and woe is me. I'm just saying that with the context being clearer in hindsight I've realized a lot. I don't regret much, and the good times were really good.

And hey, that's okay. I do think that's fine. But I was in a delusion that I should have expected otherwise. MY main goal right now is to figure out how to just be with myself. And maybe regain a bit more of a stronger bond with my local family. Things I can rely on, things that are real.

That fact alone dispelled any sense of structure I had for what any of this was. It eliminated my false sense of foundation and everything came shattering down. If I logged off, hardly anyone has my number. And those that have it wouldn't use it to contact me. Everything would move on without me.