im gonna be sick

way i could possibly get a gun /get myself to actually do it

said someone landed on the east coast no more than a few hours ago and wont be back for another year or something like that

are you happy that youve finally broken me world

ill stop being fucking edgy i guess idk

wanna shoot myself holy fuck /maybe not dramatic but uh. literally dont know of any

nobody else wants to be broken

nobody wants to hate themself for being useless like me

maybe im just being dramatic or something and ill be fine tomorrow but whatever this is feels like the rot i was expecting

it feels like everythint i feared

i wish someone could help me but

im not killing myself

too much of a pussy to even make a plan or think about it as always

but in another universe im gone

i dont know what ill do in this one

im so tired of everything

someone else could front but none of the others can take it to the extent i have

i dont blame them because

not at anythibg btw i just love unique time sigs