I need to stop liking people.

People are not worth emotionally investing in. I understand now why people say blood is thicker than water. "Found family"? Bullshit. At least with my flesh and blood family we have stronger connections than just "trust me bro"

I meet someone and I cannot even trust them on the most basic levels. They will all let me down. Never get too attached.

It gives me no pleasure to be an asshole. I guess then the only path open to me to avoid hurt is the path of seclusion and total withdrawal. But that is a dead end.

Am I being too nice, then? Is the only true society that which I cannot depend on another's kindness/relationships hinge on another's mercy? Because clearly, I myself am not worthy enough. Nothing worse than thinking people enjoy my presence when they hate it.

ugh, yeah. It's a colour thing it seems. Sucks, I only got this monitor for 3 years

Can you prove that you're not an egirl menhera aesthetic tiktoker?

I've also got the exact same problem rn. The lines don't show up in BIOS mode so I think this could be not a monitor problem but a graphics driver problem.

will you be coming to montreal again, mongrel

I'm sad that I may have driven away normies who I genuinely tried to ingratiate with this. Talking about high school... the things that happened there had an everyday banality to it that steadily eroded their taboo-ness in my head. Having it happen to myself also make the subject no longer verboten.

Said "rape" too many times during polite conversation, which was my bad. But that's what happened.
But that really isn't a polite dinnertime conversation. I probably should have realised this earlier.

thought this was guroposting on my timeline and got excited