I'm not going to wake up to see people.

I mean, what are the chances non-bots even connect with my spiraling.

It's like I'm realizing just how dysfunctional I am. I just want "adult responsibilities" and consequences to pause so I can recover.

For now, if I can recover and maybe get on some meds that actually help, I may get driving again. As of now, I don't want, but I feel I can't afford not having a car.

I don't have the money or skills to finance the other people or myself. I have no support system and I'm afraid to go back to my parents (who have done soo much) for help.