admittedly I wanted to just be able to move on, but upon reflection I really can't do that. my name is still involved, and to be honest there's been misconceptions and misrepresentations on things i just wanna talk out. I'd rather do that then some reply-war that clogs the TL.

at this point i just want some form of civility and proper discussion because this online spectacle is quite tiring.

to be quite honest this whole thing has worn me down emotionally in ways i can't truly grapple with and i want no further association. blueskaia was a great time for me, and im sorry that all of this has become some spectacle.

the image of me "doxxing" was me posting a screenshot that was posted in a public server and multiple people vouched that this was common knowledge. i wouldn't have done it otherwise. i even have said to calm down with certain stuff multiple times & to not make jokes about things like abuse.

just go about life and try not to be too hard on yourself,and try your best to be kind to others and be there for people. we live in a very antisocial world, but we can change that through little kind interactions everyday, I believe.

during that time and it's helped immensely in making all of this easier. I have no hatred for anyone in this situation, just hope that people can improve, change their life around, etc. I pray for people because I believe someone can always strive for good.

as if you have no one else can cause many people to shatter and lose parts of themselves. i know it happened with me. so please, talk to the people you love. reach out, check on them, make sure that they're okay. I've been doing a lot of work to reconnect with the people I stopped talking to +

things will hurt, but the ebb and flow of time continues and we all have the power in ourselves to do what we feel is right, and get past roadbumps of people who did us wrong. <3

i'm still grappling with a lot of this myself, dealing with a lot of waves of emotion, sadness, anger, etc. but i believe in trying to help people, so if you're reading this, drink lots of water. get yourself something yummy! watch a good show or read a book! try to make this day a little easier.

these scars will never be permanent. you can heal from these things, not let people of that sort dictate your every move. you don't have to give them the time of day, you have more power than you realize and you can make the executive decisions for yourself.

love you so much evies 🩷

I've only slept for like 3 hours