I know I'm shooting this out into the dark into a world of messages and people I'll never meet but I hate myself I hate how much I care and how much I love how I always stand up for others how I save others before myself I hate that. I hate me I wish I could just not care. I hate being good.

For anyone who hasn't heard it in awhile or needs to hear it now I'm proud of you. You've struggled and pushed and fought and kept going even if it was just getting out of bed or eating a meal or taking your medication you did that no one else so I'm proud of you.