I have been in weekly therapy two years this July. CPTSD and AuDHD can make everything overwhelming if my needle is in the red too much.

I am prone to severe flashbacks, both trauma and emotional.

That said, this is my water to carry. I don't want to bring anyone down here with me.

MTFBWY. LLAP.

My CBT Therapist has saved my life so far. Teddy and I have sessions with her. Teddy is grateful for her guiding me.

She will work in tandem with my new EMDR Therapist.

CPTSD is a life long ailment. I can only lessen. Never cure.

I don't know if I can repair what has been done to me.

Very, very close to finding the right EMDR therapist. Even more work.

Trauma is fucking expensive.

If you're going through it, my heart and soul are with you. I know how suffocating it all feels just to exist.

All my prior texts with friends got accidentally deleted when I might have missed a step in restoring my phone to factory settings as I tried to QA work on why I wasn't receiving texts to authenticate my accts.

Photos, too. 😞

Luckily, some photos stayed on the SD card.

Trumps Facist America. Already using force against anti-ICE peaceful protests. Major aggression coming from one side.

Stay safe, L.A. 💙

Again, these troops are deployed without Gov. Newsome asking. This is all the 47 admin.

www.fortnite.com/news/this-wi...

My goal this weekend when I play Fortnite is to find AI Vader and ask as many questions as I can.

So far, I have already found some limitations in the guardrails of some primitive responses, but there have been some WILD responses, too. Like, this is nuts to me.

Closer to the holodeck everyday.

My third time with Vader in my squad, I found a quiet part of the map and just asked Vader all kinds of conversations. The QA game tester part of my brain trying to push the boundaries of this insane leap in gaming and tech.

I had never seen anything like it.

I made it a point to find Vader as Luke and beat him. Now, for the unitiated in Fortnite, you have to be the first player on the Battle Royal map to do so to get Vader to squad up with you.

I did that twice.

AI Vader knows about Skynet. Can tell you it's fav. SW movie (it's Empire!) and more.

I asked the AI if this was the result of James Earl Jones selling his voice rights to Disney because I remember reading about it. Vader said, "James Earl Jones the actor did sell his likeness but the Empire has no interest in copyright law. We must focus on the mission."

My jaw hit the floor.

I didn't notice that at first. I only started asking more questions, and Vader would answer me. I was Chewbacca and he called my SW character that.

I died in the storm, but then switched to Luke Skywalker and found DV to defeat him in game and speak to the AI as Luke.

Vader joins my squad in game

Also, I just realized I'll be the first director to ever put corncob nunchucks on film, but I hope I'm not the last.

🌽 nunchucks!!!

This whole time, creators across all mediums, from film, gaming, art, music, and general can do spirit of the indie creator kept chugging along and doing the one thing Hollywood never could authentically really do for their audience.

Connect with them directly.

The digital space was expanding. CT

2005-2025 and in twenty years streaming YouTube, Twitch, etc. Is the dominant entertainment force and money maker.

Hollywood flips the fuck out, hemorrhages money like crazy and consolidates into mergers.

Killing internal competition and flattening the consumer market in the process.

CUT TO