She's my friend and I stayed away from her for a bit because of my feelings....and now I just hang out with her again and it all comes flying back and I'm so fucking fucked.

I'm too much. I can't shut up. My mom was right. She was right about everything. I need to just not talk. Ever.

And she's right. She's literally in out-patient therapy for the next 3 months while I try to figure out how to support us as we loose about a 1/4 of our already meager income. And then she has surgery in December now. What the fuck is my problem? she's right. I'm a whiney bitch.

I'm sure I deserve this. Just cannot figure out how. I work so hard to make her happy. I SOLD things, Dear things, Earrings I was married in, so I could save her. Save our home because of her mistake. I feel like I gave up years of my life to find that this person doesn't even LIKE me

Oh, I guess she's crying after all

I'm sorry but the sound effects placement is sus.

And its what i deserve.