:(

before that one girl got obsessive over me last summer and violated my boundaries i was so social and alive, now everything scares me

you're definitely right, and i'm thankfully starting to feel that way again

maybe if they hadn't already seen me light up and become happy once before they'd be more able to see how incredible transition has been for me. i don't know

it's fine i'm fine i'm just sad. and i wished i transitioned before i developed something temporary that they truly fell in love with

i saw an old picture on facebook of me with my family and i remembered the camaraderie we used to have. i still have that with some of them individually but that feeling is mostly gone now. it felt so secure

there was a guy that fit in with his family once, i forced out a personality that was truly fun to be around. being that wasn't sustainable but he fit in with my family so well

oh this one's bad

one of my friends is posting a different picture of a deer every day on her insta story that's really the main thing holding me together right now i think

also very funny how much i switched back and forth between being like "i'm a top" to "i'm a bottom" to "i'm a heavily bottom leaning switch" to "i'm a top leaning switch"

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everything's okay i'm just an emotional girlie