I am not in love
Love, we are told, is exciting.
Love gets the heart pumping and makes the mind dizzy.
Love begets obsession, and feelings of limerance.

I am not in love.
Here, the water is calm, infinite, undisturbed by winds, currents or lunar tides.
Here, it is quiet: safety awaits well... tbc

@sainsburys.bsky.social just woke me up for my door number in LEABANK. I live in Five Springs, the wrong block of flats! I should be still asleep.

I would rather sacrifice you, what we had, as my blood flows from the deepest recesses of my soul, to become more empowered, strengthened, than weaken myself in your presence filled w/well intentioned dredging up of deep set triggers disguised as volunteered paternal love 1/2

Temporary display image up, until I can locate the good stuff on my phone. Everything is across many folders.

The main chorus of 'Dead Enough for Life' fits my concept and experience of really wanting to share qualia with someone... but knowing that that possibility is out of reach with the person you wish to share it with, with devastating consequences.

Yo. I am now on bluesky.