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binging like a mf today before i have to lock in tomorrow

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my coworker triggers tf out of me every time we work together they are sooo fucking skinny it's almost shocking literally almost skeletal. and they wear these like tank tops or loose tops and i can see their sternum fuck it drives me nuts

i can tell i'm having a hard time bc i'm stimming almost nonstop and not talking to ppl as much

i hate waking up from most of my dreams i wanna keep dreaming

i miss the vent app
this is my vent app now

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ended up eating little caesars as omad let's pray i can actually control myself and not eat any more ugh im so gross

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i binged soooo much last night i feel so disgusting i don't wanna eat today ugh

where are the good nsfw accs on here everything looks like spam pxrn bot ai bullshit

it's sad to realize i am made of trauma, literally my whole existence. from family, friends, relationships, strangers even. at every age and point in my life. it's like people can smell it on me and take advantage of it. i fawn and freeze to survive. my trauma affects me every single day.

i tell everyone i'm healed and doing better from my last relationship but the truth is now i'm avoidant with every new person i meet, and now i feel nothing when they leave

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having disordered eating issues and working at a clothing store is like being on fire in hell

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god im so fat can i ever just control myself please i feel like ill never lose the weight bc i can't fucking stop myself im so gross

goddd my cramps are so bad and i still have like 3 hours of work left ki11 me please,, my sensory issues r so bad bc of my period too everything is so loud and so much im dying

tell me why everyone is working the day after christmas at my job -_- why!!! i feel like shit my body is so tired

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i wish intervention made more ed eps i could literally watch those all day,, i rewatch them religiously in my honeymoon phase nothing triggers me like those eps,,, sighs longingly

x sh ᵀᵂ

all i wanna do is bed rot all day and cxt myself and be on the internet is that too much to ask for