new litmus test: do you genuinely believe zelensky “threatened” the safety of the US with his comment about how we’d feel the effects of war eventually?

there’s only one correct answer, and because of such a truth, the opposition to Ukraine is taking this for the grandest spin and claiming threats.

ofc, after all the babies cycled their teeth cleanings, one of my skywalkers had a tiny mass appear at the start of the week. we had it removed yesterday, nice lil tumor that was sent off to check on. jfc. poor lil guy. worrying about them every waking minute breaks my heart so many times over.

my late night meals and snacks aren’t the same without you, bagel. 😪

this just doesn’t feel real at all.

every day is met with another series of reminders either through expected behaviors of hers, her lil quirks or insistence to follow us everywhere, or her bed/blanket/toys smelling so much like her.

so fucking impossible. i will never be ok again, will i?

brain torturing self yet again with specific and horrific what-ifs and potentialities? check.

gotta love cptsd rearing its head even at 33.

rest easy, my beautiful beautiful angel bagel. you will be eternally cherished by the many you touched over the years. forever grateful to have walked by your side for these last 12 years of your nearly 15. now you’re free to dash across the stars without a whim to worry with.

I need to finish my other games first.
I need to finish my other games first.
I need to finish my other games first.

Oh look new game 😍

holy fuck. bday cookie butter cheesecake came out splendid. 😍

*crying*

she cracked 😖😖😖😖😖 i tried so hard. ahhhh. maybe the next one.

just glad i was finally able to take a stab at finessing her for our birthday dessert! still have a topping to drop after she cools more so i’m praying this whole ass animal of a crack can be covered 😭😭😭😭

alright alright alright.

since it’s my birthday and i’ve been a good lil tanky boi this year…

which sugar daddy wants to come forward and gift me that new bruto mount? 😭

happy birthday to me. secured some peace regarding some more of my underage sexual assault experiences. not a drag queen, but one of the most famous pastors in a small county of FL.

not me continuing to forget to keep trying to engage with social media, even on the new app.

ahhh. i can’t even blame this on the adhd 😭

tankxiety in world of warcraft really really fkn blows. 😖

i just wanna grind and push keys.
or raid.

not stare at the screen for hours fighting anxiety and imposter syndrome, letting myself be too crippled to sign up for any groups or reach out to any friends who might could join me.

s i g h.