HAVE THE HAPPIEST OF THE BIRTHS AND DAYS!!!

I want you to know that despite everything im not angry and that I care about deeply. You mean the world to me and no matter how shitty things get you will always be on my mind. You're my best friend and I will always look out for you.

Everytime I walk by your room I feel an indescribable feeling of regret and guilt wash over me. Like my love wasn't enough. I don't even have the guts to take the knife out of your room. I wanna just remove the room entirely so it can just leave my mind.

I wish I could of done things differently and maybe worded things differently so I hadn't hurt you as bad I did. When I found your suicide note. I was beyond furious. The idea you were so willing to take your life after all the love and care I put into you hurt like no other.

I think because I been misgendered a lot recently it's starting to get to me