and by this i mean that i try to not use my cc very much bc i just dont like using money i dont have + technically buying everything for a bigger price bc i owe the price + more to the cc at the end... to the point i kinda forget i even have this

i also tried tinted moisturizer from rare beauty and it was pretty nice too, but the haus labs one specifically made my hand feel really soft. tho looking at the prices the rare beauty one is a bit cheaper soooo idk. i kinda wanna go back and test them again + others bc i had run out of time

eye bags ARENT red so it matches the sunburnt look for than the rosacea look imo...

i just wish it didnt make me turn into a tomato. one day at work i had ppl asking me if i got a really bad sunburn on my face bc thats how bad it was 💀 tbh im surprised ive only gotten that reaction once bc thats how bad i look all the time and its made worse by the fact my

like literally my entire face is just Red. and i hate it bc im pale af. and tbh i feel like its made worse by sun screen, even tho ive tried sooo many to find the perfect one for me... im still searching. but thats the most important step of skin care for me so im not skipping it

so idk if i really dont want them to come i should probably make my mind up to put my foot down but also with struggling to get a job/money rn like i had planned when i got the tickets, i know they'd help pay for a lot of stuff probably... o(-<

itll go well and both of us are serious in this relationship, mostly im like.. girls when they are adults and want private time with their bf 🫣 but i get their concern bc ive never been on a plane (or even to an airport) and they arent sure i should do it alone. tbh IM not sure i should do it alone.

BUT she did say that she and my dad are considering coming with me when i go to the twice concert and im like 🧍‍♀️ idk how to feel bc its the first time im seeing my bf irl and i really just wanna be with him the whole time. i dont really have that much anxiety over him meeting my parents bc i think

and i just like dont even fit into my shoes at a certain point.. anyway my mom said she'd help me with my bills until i can get things sorted out 😭 ty mom AAAAAAAAAAAA