now if my dad would go to therapy too and actually take it seriously this time, that would be absolutely great and fantastic. maybe one day !!! but he’s so uncomfortable facing his flaws and deflects and other stuff. it wasn’t beneficial when he went a year or two ago.

my dad i guess is better ?? that’s up for debate. he’s home a lot more now, tho. so we’re getting there. i guess. but my mom is a lot more present now and actually listens to me. and a lot of other good things now compared to the rest of our life before. i’m grateful. better late than never.

i’m scripting i’m scripting i’m scripting
like i do before every scheduled phone call because i hate phone calls but i also am scared of first conversations with anyone

i can picture it now. she’s gonna be like “how do you feel about this phone call?” and i’d answer honestly, as i do because being dishonest makes me feel sick unless im joking

anyway idk i just think it’s fitting that this call is happening while i’m on my period so all of my feelings are intensified and idk maybe i’ll cry while on the phone lmao

actually i’ll keep posting about my freak out in here so nobody questions me okay i don’t need that right now lmao

idk man like my quality of life improved after i stopped taking those and stopped seeing my old therapist so idk !!! who knows !!!

THEY GOT ME HERE NO FUCK FUCK

and my brain is being mean again. 🫩

GO !!! AWAY !!!!

we need to end all luteal phase

real

:( thank you 🫶 i love and appreciate you too

i can’t disagree because i live here and it’s true that my brain is evil

it’s such a bully sometimes :(