rlly wanna to Back to the gym so i could reach my peak physique, but its sooooooooooo tiring going everyday T-T

Also, maybe i just felt unfulfilled being a data analyst because i didnt felt “attracted” to it lmao

Studying cybersec/pentesting is SO GOOD, i rarely feel pressured and often times studying it feels exhilarating, prob gonna try and get the THM Penttesting certification for red cap app :3

Now, in the topic of religion:

After reading a little bit of the bible and praying at least 5-6 times a week i can for sure say: God was sending me signals for YEARS lmao how could i be so blind

It is also bcs of Him that my mood swings don’t happen anymore, i feel stable and happy all the tim

Rlly funny that roughly one month ago i was sure that i was alone fr this time but then i just looked back and saw a fuckton of people that i thought forgor about me cheering me up lol

(ty babe, it is because of u that i feel amazing and so proud of myself

Só deixando bem claro que não digo que sou católico, evangelica ou espírita, mas sim que atualmente vejo religião com outros olhos e que digo que Deus vem me ajudando muito com tudo, por mais que seja em silêncio

Sempre preferi e sempre vou preferir ter minha religião em silêncio :3 whatever it is

ik this is kinda tough to admit, but i actually think that, in some way or another, coming back to religion really helped my with self-esteem issues and overjealousy, also helped me a LOT on trying to not control everything around me

ty God you a real one lmao

i really despise my jealousy, but unfortunately i cant control it anymore

sometimes i wonder if i really deserve everything that i got, because i dont feel like i do

fucking hell, i sometimes think its best for me to go back and find relieve in sh lmao