i completely forgot to post this my freaking bad

i still have to accept that no system will have the same experience and that its ok for me to have a unique experience with systemhood, no matter how strange our makeup may be. alters being partially fused isnt unheard of and i turned my bpd into quiet bpd + likely fused a lot of us at the same time

i have AWFUL memory issues for starters, not to mention our persecutor Lucifer was the full host for a solid year before "I" came back. i put it in quotations because it feels like theres two of me in a way

for reference i likely am a system but my experience in life has led to us being like.. a weird amalgamation of consciousness is the most comfortable way to explain it. we are one and separate all at once

honestly fire

OHH ARE THEY? okay awesome i did not know this, TYY

+ the "me distracting the other team"

dont need to prove myself either but its def funny that just yesterday i was thinking "what if im faking being on the schizospec?" at the same time as i was squinting at the outlet looking for cameras or bugs. and refusing to fully sit on the toilet because i forgot to check under it for cameras.LOL