My $uicidal eps over these past few months have been bitchslapping me across the face repeatedly.

That and probably losing weight due to being deficit in all else your body needs. Or "water weight."

And I miss vent a shitton but man whatever. I was told to journal instead but my memory isn't well enough to even remember day to day or even hour to hour activities.

I don't think I've recovered from my family treating me like dogshit when I asked for help just yet. But I don't know how I'm suppose to when both my parents called me on separate occasions to berate me. And then didn't listen to a single word I said. My wife got to observe the calls at least.

I just think it's fucked up. And I didn't write the initial tweet correctly but I'm not fixing it. And I've been hallucinating like crazy and sleeping like utter shit since our car got broken into but you know. Getting a job will fix me.

I need to get tossed in the ocean. I also need to sleep.

I don't even fucking know anyone from chicago 😭 and if this was a friend, almost none of my friends would address me in such a manner. And if this was a recruiter this way of texting is much too lax

I should have recorded the fucking phone call I'm so pissed off.

My mother gives 1k to my eldest sister MONTHLY and yet she says this to me. She guilt trips me and says "I can't always help you, you can't always ask for help from me. Think of what I'M going through." Meanwhile I've only asked her for money one singular time last year.

Earlier I tried to rt something and it told me I did but I couldn't see proof of it 😭

It makes me so irritated. I understand that I'm not the most well off person but hearing "just get evicted" from someone who IS well off and is family who I trusted to turn to is just . Unfathomable

"Just get evicted" as if that's gonna solve my problems??? I'm not the only one who'd be out of a place to live. And it'd ruin everyone's credit and an eviction on your record us a death sentence.