raya
@ettoettobetsuni.bsky.social
cat adorer, jdrama nerd, language learner, aha-enthusiast | yagira yuya pls ❤️ | eng native/jp OK | 🇯🇵🇩🇪🇨🇳📚 | nursing student | betsuni, bitch
another year~~ i’ve learned a lot about people around me, but i’ve learned more about myself 🌱 lots of people suck & the world is a shitshow; somehow i persist. i’m sad she’s not here to know this version of me but i’m glad she’s not here to experience everything that’s been happening. ✌🏻
December 1, 2024 at 8:07 AM
another year~~ i’ve learned a lot about people around me, but i’ve learned more about myself 🌱 lots of people suck & the world is a shitshow; somehow i persist. i’m sad she’s not here to know this version of me but i’m glad she’s not here to experience everything that’s been happening. ✌🏻
my mom was my whole family, I’m so lost right now. the hospice staff were the only ones to hug and console me. my grandma hugged me once when they bagged her body, & I feel like it was only because she couldn’t handle it. meanwhile my aunt hasn’t called or texted me at all but texted my grandma.
January 14, 2024 at 9:49 PM
my mom was my whole family, I’m so lost right now. the hospice staff were the only ones to hug and console me. my grandma hugged me once when they bagged her body, & I feel like it was only because she couldn’t handle it. meanwhile my aunt hasn’t called or texted me at all but texted my grandma.
one thing I keep thinking I’d like to do scrapbook to collect my memories, her person, her life into something physical that I can always add to.
at this point my wound is raw & all I want to do is hoard her belongings, but I need some tool to help me process through this experience.
at this point my wound is raw & all I want to do is hoard her belongings, but I need some tool to help me process through this experience.
January 14, 2024 at 7:22 PM
one thing I keep thinking I’d like to do scrapbook to collect my memories, her person, her life into something physical that I can always add to.
at this point my wound is raw & all I want to do is hoard her belongings, but I need some tool to help me process through this experience.
at this point my wound is raw & all I want to do is hoard her belongings, but I need some tool to help me process through this experience.
woke up several times throughout the night but actually got up just before 9:29 today…
I have a mom-sized hole in my heart, and I don’t know how to carry the grief that comes with it yet. I end up sitting in one place with no drive to get up until my cat comes meowing his ass off at me.
I have a mom-sized hole in my heart, and I don’t know how to carry the grief that comes with it yet. I end up sitting in one place with no drive to get up until my cat comes meowing his ass off at me.
January 14, 2024 at 6:11 PM
woke up several times throughout the night but actually got up just before 9:29 today…
I have a mom-sized hole in my heart, and I don’t know how to carry the grief that comes with it yet. I end up sitting in one place with no drive to get up until my cat comes meowing his ass off at me.
I have a mom-sized hole in my heart, and I don’t know how to carry the grief that comes with it yet. I end up sitting in one place with no drive to get up until my cat comes meowing his ass off at me.
she passed away at 9:29 this morning. never came to like she did at the hospital where she talked, watched some tv, & fed herself, but I did have a brief back and forth — tho she wasn’t very lucid and probably in some pain — when I got to the hospice house.
January 13, 2024 at 9:59 PM
she passed away at 9:29 this morning. never came to like she did at the hospital where she talked, watched some tv, & fed herself, but I did have a brief back and forth — tho she wasn’t very lucid and probably in some pain — when I got to the hospice house.
my mom was a&o enough last night to agree to have her care switched from active treatment to comfort. she was mostly out of it yesterday but has had a few moments of clarity… only during one of them did I feel like I could have a semi-normal conversation with her.
January 12, 2024 at 2:22 PM
my mom was a&o enough last night to agree to have her care switched from active treatment to comfort. she was mostly out of it yesterday but has had a few moments of clarity… only during one of them did I feel like I could have a semi-normal conversation with her.
my mom transferred to a step down unit yesterday but she is 110% not herself... it's a shock to the system seeing someone you love needing the same level of care you've been providing other patients with where you tell yourself "if this were my mom...”
January 9, 2024 at 3:53 PM
my mom transferred to a step down unit yesterday but she is 110% not herself... it's a shock to the system seeing someone you love needing the same level of care you've been providing other patients with where you tell yourself "if this were my mom...”
one of my rc supervisors just nudged me to finish my onboarding courses… my dude, I feel guilty enough but can I just have a saturday pls? I’m running two full-times & slacking on two volunteer jobs crying about how to manage full-time nursing & everything in between. 🦥✨🪄✨🤷🏻♀️
January 6, 2024 at 10:29 PM
one of my rc supervisors just nudged me to finish my onboarding courses… my dude, I feel guilty enough but can I just have a saturday pls? I’m running two full-times & slacking on two volunteer jobs crying about how to manage full-time nursing & everything in between. 🦥✨🪄✨🤷🏻♀️
the starbucks machine at work has been misbehaving all week, here’s to welcoming the new year with a hot $3 cup of water that is most definitely not a mocha 🥲🥳
January 1, 2024 at 11:08 AM
the starbucks machine at work has been misbehaving all week, here’s to welcoming the new year with a hot $3 cup of water that is most definitely not a mocha 🥲🥳
evening NTL accidentally or “accidentally” giving me — the new hire — the most patients? idk but I wanted to cry 😭
December 22, 2023 at 10:39 AM
evening NTL accidentally or “accidentally” giving me — the new hire — the most patients? idk but I wanted to cry 😭
the atrocity of carpet in a bathroom
December 5, 2023 at 12:13 AM
the atrocity of carpet in a bathroom
if I’d known literally no one, including the instructor, wasn’t planning to show up until TBD??? for the 10 AM training, I wouldn’t have gotten up so early 💀
November 29, 2023 at 6:19 PM
if I’d known literally no one, including the instructor, wasn’t planning to show up until TBD??? for the 10 AM training, I wouldn’t have gotten up so early 💀
I generated some AI headshots and I’m not even mad 🥹
October 30, 2023 at 9:52 PM
I generated some AI headshots and I’m not even mad 🥹
I paid the $5 to recover my photobucket for a video of a goose skulking by my old porch. the goose video isn’t there, but long-lost photos of my first kitty are! I thought I’d lost every photo I had. RIP, andy 🩵
October 28, 2023 at 1:31 PM
I paid the $5 to recover my photobucket for a video of a goose skulking by my old porch. the goose video isn’t there, but long-lost photos of my first kitty are! I thought I’d lost every photo I had. RIP, andy 🩵
who am I if I’m not buying books because of cats (but I did hear this was good) 💙📚
October 8, 2023 at 8:07 PM
who am I if I’m not buying books because of cats (but I did hear this was good) 💙📚
in my chinese pronunciation course I think I’m the only one who’s feedback is still to focus on the front of my tongue and arch it to the roof for yì, but I am? 🥹 comparing audio to the examples and mine, I hear yì and my tongue is close to spilling out of my teeth what am I doing wrong idk 😭
October 1, 2023 at 3:05 AM
in my chinese pronunciation course I think I’m the only one who’s feedback is still to focus on the front of my tongue and arch it to the roof for yì, but I am? 🥹 comparing audio to the examples and mine, I hear yì and my tongue is close to spilling out of my teeth what am I doing wrong idk 😭
someone better adopt this cat at the end because this story is making me feel incredibly sad
ʕ ಡ ﹏ ಡ ʔ
ʕ ಡ ﹏ ಡ ʔ
July 12, 2023 at 2:17 AM
someone better adopt this cat at the end because this story is making me feel incredibly sad
ʕ ಡ ﹏ ಡ ʔ
ʕ ಡ ﹏ ಡ ʔ
japanese translation of the iron widow by xiran jay zhao — the cover!✨👀
July 9, 2023 at 2:07 AM
japanese translation of the iron widow by xiran jay zhao — the cover!✨👀
一年になったね！♥٩( 'ω' )و★彡
ちょうど1年前、私はMaxを動物保護施設から引き取りましだ
Maxには前の飼い主が2人いましたけど、今ここは彼の「forever home」ですね
🩵🩵🩵🥹
ちょうど1年前、私はMaxを動物保護施設から引き取りましだ
Maxには前の飼い主が2人いましたけど、今ここは彼の「forever home」ですね
🩵🩵🩵🥹
June 17, 2023 at 5:13 AM
一年になったね！♥٩( 'ω' )و★彡
ちょうど1年前、私はMaxを動物保護施設から引き取りましだ
Maxには前の飼い主が2人いましたけど、今ここは彼の「forever home」ですね
🩵🩵🩵🥹
ちょうど1年前、私はMaxを動物保護施設から引き取りましだ
Maxには前の飼い主が2人いましたけど、今ここは彼の「forever home」ですね
🩵🩵🩵🥹
あ、ランニングをした後の今朝の空です〜
早朝のランニング中に外で、空が明るくなるのを見ています。最高だと思います。 💙
早朝のランニング中に外で、空が明るくなるのを見ています。最高だと思います。 💙
May 3, 2023 at 2:43 PM
あ、ランニングをした後の今朝の空です〜
早朝のランニング中に外で、空が明るくなるのを見ています。最高だと思います。 💙
早朝のランニング中に外で、空が明るくなるのを見ています。最高だと思います。 💙
トラ猫の日です！これは、すべてのドライングマットに座るのが好きな私の猫です😘💜
Maxが彼の名前ですけど、大体Booger HeadやBaby Cakesなどの名前で呼ばれています🫠💕
Maxが彼の名前ですけど、大体Booger HeadやBaby Cakesなどの名前で呼ばれています🫠💕
April 30, 2023 at 12:57 PM
トラ猫の日です！これは、すべてのドライングマットに座るのが好きな私の猫です😘💜
Maxが彼の名前ですけど、大体Booger HeadやBaby Cakesなどの名前で呼ばれています🫠💕
Maxが彼の名前ですけど、大体Booger HeadやBaby Cakesなどの名前で呼ばれています🫠💕
I didn’t meet my reading goal but I did meet my cardio goal 🌱✨ reaching for a steady 5k again after hitting a long rough patch, and I’ll slowly get there. 3/3 half hour sessions for week 01, covered a smidge more ground each time 💜
April 29, 2023 at 4:20 PM
I didn’t meet my reading goal but I did meet my cardio goal 🌱✨ reaching for a steady 5k again after hitting a long rough patch, and I’ll slowly get there. 3/3 half hour sessions for week 01, covered a smidge more ground each time 💜
カナカナを読み始めます〜★彡
私は、日本語で読むのが上手になりたいですけど…
(；・ε・)ゝ”
私は、日本語で読むのが上手になりたいですけど…
(；・ε・)ゝ”
April 23, 2023 at 7:55 AM
カナカナを読み始めます〜★彡
私は、日本語で読むのが上手になりたいですけど…
(；・ε・)ゝ”
私は、日本語で読むのが上手になりたいですけど…
(；・ε・)ゝ”