Still, I was broken and damaged from my failed (and abusive) marriage and I didn't know how to trust him or love him the way he deserved, and I can't blame him for walking away.
My trauma was my own to deal with, and that was one of the most painful lessons I've learned.

He listened to me and seemed to understand me on a level no one ever had, or has since him. And when he didn't understand me, he tried his best to be supportive anyway.
He made me feel like I was the most fascinating person in the world.

because not only did I lose my boyfriend and person I legitimately wanted to start a family with, but I also lost my best friend. I lost the person who, in a short amount of time, managed to know me better than most. And the things that he didn't know about me, he was willing to learn.

He told me that this was his favorite song by Brand New, and explained the reason why.
I don't think I will ever be able to listen to this song without remembering him or how much he meant to me.
Losing him was one of the most difficult things I've gone through,