oh also got confirmation that something ive experienced since i was a kid was just derealization so! yippee for finding out that ur symptoms are valid and ur not crazy for thinking u have something going on you just have super bad dissociation issues

i started therapy again today so. lets hope this one works out. i notice i tend to be a lot better about being social when i am working with a therapist

uh. man. a shit ton has happened since i was last on this acc. lets just say theres been lots of good and lots of bad

copper my fucking beloved hand crafting this ref for him

i just. idk. my brain doesnt want to function rn

you vent guys get to see my wips now congrats i will be SO annoying about it /silly

i feel like its nonstop recently and thats good but it also means my body is so exhausted and my brain is so exhausted. im having so much fun but also im juggling so many responsibilities and demands sometimes that my autistic brain is like (throws a fit)

all is good dw but its just a lot and im sitting here like. processing. just like.

i love my job. i love my field. im lucky to have a job i enjoy but some days i have to remember that being anywhere even close to medical means sometimes im gonna deal with medical things and i finally just got home and i feel like im melting into my chair and becoming a blob

im glad we made it home just fine but i wish i didnt have to work today afgtsrhdg

literally have been trying to find one that works thats not just our sys name