y a eu de la neige dans la nuit du 24 au 25 Décembre chez mes parents, par contre dans la ville où j'habite ? Que tchi. Et là on est dans les temp negatives depuis avant-hier jusqu'à début de semaine pro donc c'est mort, il neigera pas 🥲

I read "enemy" 😭

I personally think it exists bc Some Men know women's standards have changed and that none would accept to date them (for good reasons) so they just convince themselves that 1) women are the problem and 2) domination (of women) is the way to go

long story short: misogyny.

tellement soûlé que j'suis à deux doigts de juste pas venir passer les Fêtes chez mes parents en fait. Vraiment c'est une singerie.

ON AVAIT UN PEU UN GUN SUR LA TEMPE ON PEUT PAS ÊTRE PARTOUT 😭😭

But I will push through. MCRP will be my exposure therapy. I'll try my best and take baby steps 😭

(thanks for coming to my Ted Talk btw lol)

it pains me I still haven't processed this whole debacle entirely and I feel so bad for allowing someone to hurt me so much it took got me to stop a hobby and, 6 years later, I'm still struggling.

so yeah.

Being in so close contact to MCRP's admins triggered me and I'm having nightmares now. I don't know if I should talk to them about it.

One of them approached me inrp and my mind went almost completely blank, with only alarms blaring, on the fucking spot.

They WILL play the victim. They WILL make you look like you've always been the evil one. They WILL talk behind your back. They WILL get everyone to turn on you. Do NOT trust these people.

Words of advice: if someone ever does that, DO NOT interact with them. Don't let them get into your inner circle, they WILL fuck you over one way or another. It might take years, even decades, but they WILL do it to serve their narrative.

When she came back after 4 or 5 years of ghosting, she did the exact same thing on a whole fucking discord server, as a first introduction to mostly complete strangers, before playing the part of the perfect, untouchable little angel.

Yikes.

I remember clearly that one of the very first things she ever did when we started talking all the way back in 2013 was trauma dump on me.

In 2025, adult me just can't fathom what teenage me ever saw in her. And the answer is: nothing. She was manipulating me into pitying her for the shit life she had mostly brought upon herself.

I must add at that point I was pretty vulnerable at that time. she knew it all along, and she knew how much I needed her to step up and do the things she promised she'd do.

or if she didn't, just for her to apologise for being such a spineless wuss, you know?

I wrote a last message, apologising (in retrospect, I shouldn't have. she had that crash-out coming for 5+ years.) and left.

the MINUTE I did it a burden was lifted off my shoulders. It felt *so good* burning bridges. like taking a breath of clean air.