I am /still/ taking an L on this week, specifically, on this weekend

Earlier, I had turned off the TV and dragged my mind to creating for simply creating. Even tidied up, ate, and forced myself to disengage from not engaging. Its daunting and uncomfortable, but its a start. I also got comfortable sharing screencaps I have no intention of keeping onto SMs that isnt dc

And to start from scratch, I will.

More on this--I have also rediscovered a little bit of the one social I had completely let go of in the past year, even including previous people I had on...I'm a bit concerned because as much as I want to revamp other socials, I really don't care enough to. Which is my problem. I just want to start

Like digital storage and actual storage...I don't want furniture just yet. It feels redundant to buy new furniture I will eventually hate anyways.

I got double the Brant...now I wanna put money where my mouth is and get his weapon. At 40 pity now, but somehow scheming how to cough up another 40.

But first, lets spend the money on other things. Like official Bluelock merch available for international, and other official merch stuff.

Storage

Chased dopamine instead. Ate. Decided to get up early, clean, emails, do work, figure shit out from there. I also lowkey just want to go to the library afterwards or something.

I don't want this anymore. And I do not want to help anymore. I just want to throw away trash.

I'm not sure exactly why I feel the way I feel. I feel disappointed in sharing this with someone I care about. All I learned was to remove myself from her. I know this is a way of thinking but. I don't want her way of thinking affect me the same way she sees me: like I'm negatively affectint her...

I do wish to finish my unfinished works there but that's it.