I’m like paralyzed in this state that I’m in and I can’t get out and it makes me hate myself because everyone else is able to do so much more… and I can’t get up out of bed LOL sucks to suck

Which I think doing everyday human things don’t even count as being productive… it’s just the bare minimum but I can’t seem to do it

I just want a magical happy pill that makes me productive and doesn’t make dread even getting out of bed

I think I should probably get diagnosed and medicated but I don’t know if that’s going to work for me how I want it to

I can’t really do anything and it hinders me so much because there’s so many things that I WANT to do but I can’t

I can’t cook for myself and can’t eat proper meals because it’s just… a lot lol. Or stuff like going downstairs to refill my water

I feel like there’s something fundamentally wrong with me bc I can’t do basic human things that people do everyday. Even the smallest thing like taking out the trash takes so much out of me and so much to work up to when it shouldn’t

thats it LMFAO