🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷 I am here for you if you ever need to vent and I’m sure everyone will understand!!

not my vamp boy being all 👀 after seeing this

got me all

I was afraid my mental state will start collapsing after the 3rd year of supported therapy ended in June and here we are, collapsing.

- I am trying to psych myself up until the last second only to realize I just don’t have the mental capacity to play.

I’m even struggling with ttrpgs that have been my only lifeline for years. I don’t have the capacity to play more than one major game anymore and I am struggling with attending oneshots. I feel so bad for saying no at the very last minute before a game, (cont.)

I can’t even draw!!! I haven’t been able to draw properly for years!!! I can’t finish a single piece and keep starting over and then quit in rage.

Last month I wanted to take a vacation from applying to jobs since my partner had his summer vacation and of course I now feel very guilty and disgustingly lazy for this. I feel like I have no skills, no ambition, no motivation for anything anymore.

I’m soon on the general unemployement benefits which are honestly nonexistent after taxes. The stress this will cause keeps playing in my mind over and over and over.

I also don’t feel comfortable financially to adopt since I’ve been unemployed for over a year now. This is really starting to affect me mentally to the point my thoughts are regressing back to my suicidal 15 year old self.