hmmmm thats the thing i am still sorta theta delta with it. like i am kind of bird. but idk if thats a kink axis that works for me ?

or maybe i am a dog and i just need the right owner to bring it out of me

but idk anyone whos doing petplay not thru that context ??? maybe i just know too many dogs ???

i want a flat cage so bad so so so bad

yeah i think i need to put myself out there For This more aside from occasionally vagueposting abt it on main i havent rly been embodying it lately

i am not wanting for tops. i am not wanting for people who desire me. and i should be grateful for this but it feels like the most longstanding part of my sexual identity feels inaccessible to me, both emotionally and practically outside of me just jackin it

even though its what i want more than anything. and i do like domming too but i would like a relationship with someone where i feel Owned, and especially one where i am Trained

and honestly i have a history of that too going back years. it makes Me The Sub feel like some impossible fantasy i dont get to realize without causing serious problems