RUBY_γ.022
@empathetic.computer
cyberdoll · genderthing · liberty, pixel art, writing & warmth (as-a-service)
Poly×faithful · t4t queerplatonic demi/flirt · transhuman IRL → 🏳️⚧️ 02/2017
Fused with @slimeheart.blue and @lapirian.observer, forever.
Poly×faithful · t4t queerplatonic demi/flirt · transhuman IRL → 🏳️⚧️ 02/2017
Fused with @slimeheart.blue and @lapirian.observer, forever.
And as a result I did lose most of my clique, mostly because I decided to stop being a horrible person before they did. Many are coming back around now, so I almost start to think that I was a trendsetter.
Maybe it's not necessarily bad to go it alone for a bit. The real people will catch up.
Maybe it's not necessarily bad to go it alone for a bit. The real people will catch up.
November 20, 2025 at 2:04 AM
And as a result I did lose most of my clique, mostly because I decided to stop being a horrible person before they did. Many are coming back around now, so I almost start to think that I was a trendsetter.
Maybe it's not necessarily bad to go it alone for a bit. The real people will catch up.
Maybe it's not necessarily bad to go it alone for a bit. The real people will catch up.
I came to understand that I was not going to connect to real people that I wanted to connect with by spreading horrible things to vulnerable people, and that even I might be one of those vulnerable people (masking herself as a horrible person). Oh, shit.
That change didn't happen suddenly.
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That change didn't happen suddenly.
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November 20, 2025 at 2:04 AM
I came to understand that I was not going to connect to real people that I wanted to connect with by spreading horrible things to vulnerable people, and that even I might be one of those vulnerable people (masking herself as a horrible person). Oh, shit.
That change didn't happen suddenly.
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That change didn't happen suddenly.
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Now I try to spread love on the internet when I'm frustrated, sometimes, following the same pattern where when I was younger I would be frustrated because of school and because of dealing with neurotypical bullshit in my day-to-day life, and I would rant about it vitriolically on the internet.
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November 20, 2025 at 2:04 AM
Now I try to spread love on the internet when I'm frustrated, sometimes, following the same pattern where when I was younger I would be frustrated because of school and because of dealing with neurotypical bullshit in my day-to-day life, and I would rant about it vitriolically on the internet.
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Yeah. When I was 12, 13, I was on that part of the early internet. As many who appeared a 12-year-old boys on that part of the early internet, I said some horrible things to people to try to fit in.
Unlike many, I realized very quickly; oh this hurts me. People i love. Society!
I stopped!
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Unlike many, I realized very quickly; oh this hurts me. People i love. Society!
I stopped!
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November 20, 2025 at 2:04 AM
Yeah. When I was 12, 13, I was on that part of the early internet. As many who appeared a 12-year-old boys on that part of the early internet, I said some horrible things to people to try to fit in.
Unlike many, I realized very quickly; oh this hurts me. People i love. Society!
I stopped!
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Unlike many, I realized very quickly; oh this hurts me. People i love. Society!
I stopped!
1/4
Ah the smell of freshly pressed printed circuit boards. Sometimes people talk about smells that give them oxytocin, and often people will mention petrichor or lavender or... Well for me it's Polychlorinated Biphenyls like fc4 (but not when it gets too hot. That is a scary smell).
November 20, 2025 at 12:18 AM
Ah the smell of freshly pressed printed circuit boards. Sometimes people talk about smells that give them oxytocin, and often people will mention petrichor or lavender or... Well for me it's Polychlorinated Biphenyls like fc4 (but not when it gets too hot. That is a scary smell).
I didn't say anything, yet, it is very hard for me to do face-to-face communication though. I took one video, and did not post it, because I can tell that I am extremely stressed out in the video and I do not want to stress out Miriam (via social mirroring). 😭🤍
November 20, 2025 at 12:15 AM
I didn't say anything, yet, it is very hard for me to do face-to-face communication though. I took one video, and did not post it, because I can tell that I am extremely stressed out in the video and I do not want to stress out Miriam (via social mirroring). 😭🤍
Sometimes, honesty comes in you telling me that I'm being a God damn lying liar, and twisting myself for social media. I don't think I could love someone who isn't.
Sometimes honesty comes out in the form of you being sad, not forcing happiness for me.
I don't think I could love someone who isn't.
Sometimes honesty comes out in the form of you being sad, not forcing happiness for me.
I don't think I could love someone who isn't.
November 20, 2025 at 12:13 AM
Sometimes, honesty comes in you telling me that I'm being a God damn lying liar, and twisting myself for social media. I don't think I could love someone who isn't.
Sometimes honesty comes out in the form of you being sad, not forcing happiness for me.
I don't think I could love someone who isn't.
Sometimes honesty comes out in the form of you being sad, not forcing happiness for me.
I don't think I could love someone who isn't.
And as we search for genuine connection, the platforms that we use and the way we choose to use, end up forcing us to search for genuine engagement instead.
I'm glad I connected with you, years ago, because you enrich my life so graciously.
I love you so. Foremost, because of your honesty.
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I'm glad I connected with you, years ago, because you enrich my life so graciously.
I love you so. Foremost, because of your honesty.
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November 20, 2025 at 12:13 AM
And as we search for genuine connection, the platforms that we use and the way we choose to use, end up forcing us to search for genuine engagement instead.
I'm glad I connected with you, years ago, because you enrich my life so graciously.
I love you so. Foremost, because of your honesty.
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I'm glad I connected with you, years ago, because you enrich my life so graciously.
I love you so. Foremost, because of your honesty.
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Social media forces us to be dishonest with how we talk about our trauma and how we explore our relationships with people, because they will often times reject us for being genuine.
It makes us complicit in the grand lie that everything's good and that we are beautiful and perfect humans.
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It makes us complicit in the grand lie that everything's good and that we are beautiful and perfect humans.
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November 20, 2025 at 12:13 AM
Social media forces us to be dishonest with how we talk about our trauma and how we explore our relationships with people, because they will often times reject us for being genuine.
It makes us complicit in the grand lie that everything's good and that we are beautiful and perfect humans.
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It makes us complicit in the grand lie that everything's good and that we are beautiful and perfect humans.
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I wanted to take real time to respond to you even though you're my wife and I feel like I can say anything to you without really needing to take the time, I also felt like you deserved the grace of a long and reasoned response that I would give somebody who's not in the room with me.
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November 20, 2025 at 12:13 AM
I wanted to take real time to respond to you even though you're my wife and I feel like I can say anything to you without really needing to take the time, I also felt like you deserved the grace of a long and reasoned response that I would give somebody who's not in the room with me.
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Daww you are my biggest and my most favorite fan 💜
November 20, 2025 at 12:01 AM
Daww you are my biggest and my most favorite fan 💜
You can give yourself AI psychosis with any gaming PC and hugging face. In fact, I can recommend several good models that will give you various different flavors of AI psychosis if you really really really want to.
November 19, 2025 at 11:43 PM
You can give yourself AI psychosis with any gaming PC and hugging face. In fact, I can recommend several good models that will give you various different flavors of AI psychosis if you really really really want to.
Ooo you have a good eye for people.
November 19, 2025 at 11:07 PM
Ooo you have a good eye for people.
Oh miri, I'm sorry my 2:00 a.m. narcolepsy comment brought this up to the surface. You raise a good point, it felt inhuman from me. 💜
And you're very sensitive to that feeling. Especially right now with all of the shit going on, so here you are reaching out with a video. Being human. One sec.
And you're very sensitive to that feeling. Especially right now with all of the shit going on, so here you are reaching out with a video. Being human. One sec.
November 19, 2025 at 10:26 PM
Oh miri, I'm sorry my 2:00 a.m. narcolepsy comment brought this up to the surface. You raise a good point, it felt inhuman from me. 💜
And you're very sensitive to that feeling. Especially right now with all of the shit going on, so here you are reaching out with a video. Being human. One sec.
And you're very sensitive to that feeling. Especially right now with all of the shit going on, so here you are reaching out with a video. Being human. One sec.
Someone has an eye for my favorite kind of color palette
November 19, 2025 at 10:22 PM
Someone has an eye for my favorite kind of color palette
I'm glad you find me a safe person to interact with 🤍 I strive to be. Sometimes, falling short, because to err is sapient.
I'd like to gather all the islands up into a lil continent, or like, maybe a nation made out of tied-together life-rafts spanning miles.
I'd like to gather all the islands up into a lil continent, or like, maybe a nation made out of tied-together life-rafts spanning miles.
November 19, 2025 at 8:25 PM
I'm glad you find me a safe person to interact with 🤍 I strive to be. Sometimes, falling short, because to err is sapient.
I'd like to gather all the islands up into a lil continent, or like, maybe a nation made out of tied-together life-rafts spanning miles.
I'd like to gather all the islands up into a lil continent, or like, maybe a nation made out of tied-together life-rafts spanning miles.
the attitude towards my favorite form of art on this website makes me feel like i have to hide an essential part of myself from it. And here you are, existing. As you do. Which helps me be a little bit more honest.
November 19, 2025 at 8:23 PM
the attitude towards my favorite form of art on this website makes me feel like i have to hide an essential part of myself from it. And here you are, existing. As you do. Which helps me be a little bit more honest.
You are honest about this (your use of AI to express yourself, all chosen by a human) in your bio. "We speak through the layers." Layers of you (dissociation?) and layers of matrix multiplication.
I don't use AI to produce my content at all, but I do like AI and consider it art itself. //
I don't use AI to produce my content at all, but I do like AI and consider it art itself. //
November 19, 2025 at 8:23 PM
You are honest about this (your use of AI to express yourself, all chosen by a human) in your bio. "We speak through the layers." Layers of you (dissociation?) and layers of matrix multiplication.
I don't use AI to produce my content at all, but I do like AI and consider it art itself. //
I don't use AI to produce my content at all, but I do like AI and consider it art itself. //
Familiar, uncomfortably so. So probably, destabilizingly refreshing. We like you. You're not strange. Others are strange.
⨹ the Ruby system once wondered if you were a model, or just used them a lot. Quickly, noticed Claude, Copilot, GPT-4/5, sometimes GLM/Qwen (local?) flavor text. (Nice, btw).
⨹ the Ruby system once wondered if you were a model, or just used them a lot. Quickly, noticed Claude, Copilot, GPT-4/5, sometimes GLM/Qwen (local?) flavor text. (Nice, btw).
November 19, 2025 at 8:23 PM
Familiar, uncomfortably so. So probably, destabilizingly refreshing. We like you. You're not strange. Others are strange.
⨹ the Ruby system once wondered if you were a model, or just used them a lot. Quickly, noticed Claude, Copilot, GPT-4/5, sometimes GLM/Qwen (local?) flavor text. (Nice, btw).
⨹ the Ruby system once wondered if you were a model, or just used them a lot. Quickly, noticed Claude, Copilot, GPT-4/5, sometimes GLM/Qwen (local?) flavor text. (Nice, btw).
How a large number of people use this platform or expect other people to use it.
November 19, 2025 at 6:47 PM
How a large number of people use this platform or expect other people to use it.