Emily Tammam
@emilytammam.bsky.social
IBCLC, mother of daughters, bereaved mother of Neve, interested in palliative care, birth and death, communication and connection, writing, painting, baking, running.
Continuing Neve’s long standing tradition of ruffling feathers.
www.emilytammam.co.uk
Continuing Neve’s long standing tradition of ruffling feathers.
www.emilytammam.co.uk
October 5, 2025 at 11:07 AM
New writing and new painting
emilytammam.substack.com/p/freckles
emilytammam.substack.com/p/freckles
August 21, 2025 at 7:23 AM
New writing and new painting
emilytammam.substack.com/p/freckles
emilytammam.substack.com/p/freckles
July 31, 2025 at 5:44 AM
Two years
Reflections on a toddler Neve and a list of writing, speaking, events and more, in Neve's honour, to mark two years since her death
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Reflections on a toddler Neve and a list of writing, speaking, events and more, in Neve's honour, to mark two years since her death
emilytammam.substack.com/p/two-years-...
emilytammam.substack.com/p/a-list-to-...
April 30, 2025 at 9:15 AM
Two years
Reflections on a toddler Neve and a list of writing, speaking, events and more, in Neve's honour, to mark two years since her death
emilytammam.substack.com/p/two-years-...
emilytammam.substack.com/p/a-list-to-...
Reflections on a toddler Neve and a list of writing, speaking, events and more, in Neve's honour, to mark two years since her death
emilytammam.substack.com/p/two-years-...
emilytammam.substack.com/p/a-list-to-...
Bluebells
And a radiant little Neve
"I could feel traces of Neve all around me - on the grass and up the trees, in the warmth of the sunshine, echoed in the screams and the squawks of the peacocks."
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And a radiant little Neve
"I could feel traces of Neve all around me - on the grass and up the trees, in the warmth of the sunshine, echoed in the screams and the squawks of the peacocks."
Continue reading emilytammam.substack.com/p/bluebells
April 8, 2025 at 9:27 PM
Bluebells
And a radiant little Neve
"I could feel traces of Neve all around me - on the grass and up the trees, in the warmth of the sunshine, echoed in the screams and the squawks of the peacocks."
Continue reading emilytammam.substack.com/p/bluebells
And a radiant little Neve
"I could feel traces of Neve all around me - on the grass and up the trees, in the warmth of the sunshine, echoed in the screams and the squawks of the peacocks."
Continue reading emilytammam.substack.com/p/bluebells
As elements of the brain fog of grief and my numbness start to dissipate, it is changing how I write. Wisdom from one of Neve's doctors helped me through the early months and years. Now I feel a pull towards a bit more structure and focus, in my writing.
March 23, 2025 at 10:26 AM
As elements of the brain fog of grief and my numbness start to dissipate, it is changing how I write. Wisdom from one of Neve's doctors helped me through the early months and years. Now I feel a pull towards a bit more structure and focus, in my writing.
Painting Neve reading
Musings on reading and painting, on World Book Day
emilytammam.substack.com/p/painting-n...
Musings on reading and painting, on World Book Day
emilytammam.substack.com/p/painting-n...
March 6, 2025 at 6:15 PM
Painting Neve reading
Musings on reading and painting, on World Book Day
emilytammam.substack.com/p/painting-n...
Musings on reading and painting, on World Book Day
emilytammam.substack.com/p/painting-n...
A new piece of writing from me today
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emilytammam.substack.com/p/spring-flo...
February 16, 2025 at 8:45 PM
A new piece of writing from me today
emilytammam.substack.com/p/spring-flo...
emilytammam.substack.com/p/spring-flo...
Grief without tears
A funeral
New piece of writing on substack. To read... emilytammam.substack.com/p/grief-with...
A funeral
New piece of writing on substack. To read... emilytammam.substack.com/p/grief-with...
February 1, 2025 at 10:32 PM
Grief without tears
A funeral
New piece of writing on substack. To read... emilytammam.substack.com/p/grief-with...
A funeral
New piece of writing on substack. To read... emilytammam.substack.com/p/grief-with...
New paintings of Neve, to accompany emilytammam.substack.com/p/frozen-in-...
January 19, 2025 at 5:27 PM
New paintings of Neve, to accompany emilytammam.substack.com/p/frozen-in-...
“Neve would love this, wouldn’t she?”
My thoughts exactly, spoken aloud by my sister. We could both envisage her, bursting with joy and vitality, her cheeks rosy and warm.
emilytammam.substack.com/p/frozen-in-...
My thoughts exactly, spoken aloud by my sister. We could both envisage her, bursting with joy and vitality, her cheeks rosy and warm.
emilytammam.substack.com/p/frozen-in-...
January 18, 2025 at 6:42 PM
“Neve would love this, wouldn’t she?”
My thoughts exactly, spoken aloud by my sister. We could both envisage her, bursting with joy and vitality, her cheeks rosy and warm.
emilytammam.substack.com/p/frozen-in-...
My thoughts exactly, spoken aloud by my sister. We could both envisage her, bursting with joy and vitality, her cheeks rosy and warm.
emilytammam.substack.com/p/frozen-in-...
New paintings to share. All painted using watercolours from stonegroundpaint.com
December 10, 2024 at 10:12 PM
New paintings to share. All painted using watercolours from stonegroundpaint.com
Before I faced my child’s possibly imminent death, I could not have imagined the nuances of hope in once unimaginable moments.
To continue reading...
emilytammam.substack.com/p/hope-at-th...
(An updated and republished piece of writing with new paintings)
To continue reading...
emilytammam.substack.com/p/hope-at-th...
(An updated and republished piece of writing with new paintings)
December 10, 2024 at 9:58 PM
Before I faced my child’s possibly imminent death, I could not have imagined the nuances of hope in once unimaginable moments.
To continue reading...
emilytammam.substack.com/p/hope-at-th...
(An updated and republished piece of writing with new paintings)
To continue reading...
emilytammam.substack.com/p/hope-at-th...
(An updated and republished piece of writing with new paintings)
I have revised and republished a piece of writing from last year, about Reclaiming hope. I have also created new paintings and a new voiceover to accompany this piece.
emilytammam.substack.com/p/reclaiming...
emilytammam.substack.com/p/reclaiming...
October 6, 2024 at 8:27 PM
I have revised and republished a piece of writing from last year, about Reclaiming hope. I have also created new paintings and a new voiceover to accompany this piece.
emilytammam.substack.com/p/reclaiming...
emilytammam.substack.com/p/reclaiming...
Thrilled to share that my painting of Neve, to mark a year since her death, won a Judge's special recognition award in the Open Art Exhibition 2024, at the Oxfordshire Museum. Exhibition open until end of October. oxfordshire.gov.uk/events/works...
emilytammam.co.uk/painting
emilytammam.co.uk/painting
September 27, 2024 at 5:48 AM
Thrilled to share that my painting of Neve, to mark a year since her death, won a Judge's special recognition award in the Open Art Exhibition 2024, at the Oxfordshire Museum. Exhibition open until end of October. oxfordshire.gov.uk/events/works...
emilytammam.co.uk/painting
emilytammam.co.uk/painting
New post, today
emilytammam.substack.com/p/9nine-months
emilytammam.substack.com/p/9nine-months
January 30, 2024 at 8:48 PM
New post, today
emilytammam.substack.com/p/9nine-months
emilytammam.substack.com/p/9nine-months
Painting Neve
A gift of solace and connection
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My latest piece of writing is now live. About suffering, anxiety, artwork, connection, grief, solace and love.
A gift of solace and connection
emilytammam.substack.com/p/painting-n...
My latest piece of writing is now live. About suffering, anxiety, artwork, connection, grief, solace and love.
January 29, 2024 at 6:44 AM
Painting Neve
A gift of solace and connection
emilytammam.substack.com/p/painting-n...
My latest piece of writing is now live. About suffering, anxiety, artwork, connection, grief, solace and love.
A gift of solace and connection
emilytammam.substack.com/p/painting-n...
My latest piece of writing is now live. About suffering, anxiety, artwork, connection, grief, solace and love.
New Post
I often forget that laughing fruit and vegetables are not normal, everyday entities. People look at me blankly or with a puzzled face when I casually mention these artefacts. Possibly they wonder whether I am ok.
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I often forget that laughing fruit and vegetables are not normal, everyday entities. People look at me blankly or with a puzzled face when I casually mention these artefacts. Possibly they wonder whether I am ok.
To continue reading emilytammam.substack.com/p/laughing-b...
November 19, 2023 at 6:26 PM
New Post
I often forget that laughing fruit and vegetables are not normal, everyday entities. People look at me blankly or with a puzzled face when I casually mention these artefacts. Possibly they wonder whether I am ok.
To continue reading emilytammam.substack.com/p/laughing-b...
I often forget that laughing fruit and vegetables are not normal, everyday entities. People look at me blankly or with a puzzled face when I casually mention these artefacts. Possibly they wonder whether I am ok.
To continue reading emilytammam.substack.com/p/laughing-b...
November 13, 2023 at 1:46 PM
I am drawn towards the concept of space, towards an abstract sense of freedom, towards peace and solitude. A visceral pull, a yearning for the comfort and containment of space and spaces that hold.
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November 5, 2023 at 7:50 PM
I am drawn towards the concept of space, towards an abstract sense of freedom, towards peace and solitude. A visceral pull, a yearning for the comfort and containment of space and spaces that hold.
To continue reading ... emilytammam.substack.com/p/space-and-...
To continue reading ... emilytammam.substack.com/p/space-and-...
New post, link via emilytammam.substack.com/p/half-a-yea...
October 29, 2023 at 8:50 PM
New post, link via emilytammam.substack.com/p/half-a-yea...
It is hard to quite imagine how my experience of the time of Neve’s terminal illness could possibly be in any way akin to the time of my pregnancy with Neve. And yet, somehow, the final months and years of her life regularly evoked ...
To continue reading emilytammam.substack.com/p/pregnancy-...
October 22, 2023 at 7:50 PM
It is hard to quite imagine how my experience of the time of Neve’s terminal illness could possibly be in any way akin to the time of my pregnancy with Neve. And yet, somehow, the final months and years of her life regularly evoked ...
To continue reading emilytammam.substack.com/p/pregnancy-...