I just really wanted to do something for myself, some painting, after a day from hell yesterday, SO much pain, an exhausting 2 weeks. but the paints are ruined. And I can’t afford to replace them.

so what now 🥲 I could cry out of frustration.

but I go back to my normal 5 week rota, which just so happens to only give me 3 shifts all this month. all 4 hour shifts. Which means I’ll get paid nothing at the end of Feb.

yeah it helps with me not being ready to work, but not when I need the money. I’m fucked lol

spent easily £200+ charging the car, so that’s all my money gone. which we will get back but not until he gets paid at the end of the month.

I’m being forced to come off sick form work before I’m ready, cos they won’t be paying me anymore.

but I spent all my money on charging my car the last 2 weeks, so I could take my husband to his work training in saltash, cos his car is in the garage.

I spent 2 weeks going to & from saltash, staying there all day cos it was too exhausting to go home & come back, charging the car everyday

but cos I was the one driving, all of that impact from hitting the pothole went in to me, all of that force and impact. right on me lol.

that + disability + easily injured means that I’m in so much pain and sore and exhausted 😭

everything got fixed so the car is mostly fine, longer story to that but the car is okay.

I’m not lol.

We hit a massive pothole at 6am on a country road, blew a tyre and damaged another one. Left on the side of a road (with my husband thank god) for an hour before help came.

I’m still a little traumatised from one of mine 🥲 but, on the other side I had a heartbreaking friendship breakup which lasted like 6 months and now I’m an auntie to her kids and we’re inseparable.

omg it’s so cute 😭😭

that’s hilarious, I love it. it was a random mention so not a regular thing that will keep coming up but I will remember that 😂

I’m in a “holding pool” to start cos it needs extensive training, so waiting for a course date to start that.

But I’m so proud that I passed the interview.

to add to this, my grandfather possibly won’t make it next year. it’s not looking good, as much as I love him with all my heart and will miss him for the rest of my life, I don’t want him to keep suffering I want him to be at peace 🖤

so I’m using my time to make Christmas presents.

im not fit for work, I quit university. so im watching greys anatomy, crocheting and cuddling up with my zebra jelly cat 🖤