I wish you the best of luck

yeah thats me tbh lol

>:3c

yeah it do be like that sometimes fr

happy birthday

Im sorry for rambling and yapping, I really needed to say something to somewhere, wanted to get it off my chest in one form or another
I just want the pain to stop

I just wish I had something, just something I can have as a clue as to how or why Im so depressed 100% of every waking moment

I hate myself for this, I hate my life for how it is
but it is what it is, these feelings, this emotional breakdown was forced upon me, and this is just how it is
I was born to be fucked up
it just hurts all the time
but Im thankful for having people in my life for making it a little more easy

it doesnt matter what happens or what I do, I will always be locked in this darkness
Im trapped in my depression and everything is falling apart for me
no matter what I do, it never gets better, it just doesnt, never will, never wont be
Im stuck with my miserable self

I dont want my personal friends nor my family to know about it
I want to stay strong for them, but even then the people Im connected to are all I have to keep me here in this world
they mean so much to me and I dont want to hurt them if they knew I was down in the gutter

its not that Im sad for the sake of being sad, Im really at a loss for how Im even so bit up by it, I have no answer, nothing
I hide it and push it down, but it always comes back, everytime
my mind and heart are eternally stuck in darkness that for no known reason