And just because I want it clear

Hey

Criticism is fine

It’s great

It’s needed

And in this particular instance I probably agree with the criticism (I haven’t read it so I don’t have anything to criticize yet)

Telling someone to die is not criticism lol

I commissioned someone to 3D model Marvel’s Man-Thing, then commissioned someone to 3D resin print it and now I’m gonna paint it and sculpt a base as a gift for my favorite coworker.

Honestly probably one of the healthiest ways to vent out your rages and frustrations.

I know I’ll be fine again eventually…but it hurts to know that that chapter of my life is over now…

I am taking steps to heal…I transferred much of my savings to finally pay off the last $7400 owed on my car. I helped my dad put the floor down on the new deck he’s building which was very fun. I’m going to paint pottery with my mom later today.

I grieve the fact that I can’t hold his hand anymore and the fact that he’ll never cuddle me back to sleep when I wake up in the middle of the night again…He was my world…and now everything feels broken…and it feels like I’m missing a huge part of myself now…I feel hollow…

I was so excited to decorate our future home together. I had just begun putting together a wedding registry of sage green kitchen appliances. I had plans to have a very cutesy, girly, pc gaming set up right next to his edgier gaming setup.

I wanted lily of the valley in my bouquet. I wanted my niece to be my flower girl. I wanted my daddy-daughter dance. I wanted to be so beautiful that he would cry when he saw me walking down the aisle.

I had the song picked out to walk down the aisle to. I knew what song I wanted our first dance to be to. I wrote a song of my own to be part of my vows that he’ll never hear now. I wanted a multi-tiered table with cupcakes instead of a big, fancy cake.

It hurts because I’m having to say goodbye to what could have been. I had an appointment at David’s Bridal to try on wedding dresses and pick out my best friend’s maid of honor dress. I had just invited a couple of coworkers
friends to my wedding.