There was one time my dad accused my mom of "turning the kids against him" like no dad, that was all you, you did that. Your behavior did that.
Like idk if he's saying my mom really is that powerful or if he just thinks we're dumb. Like yes, how you treat us will affect how we view you, shocker...

Dealing with family can be...tough? frustrating? challenging? one of those, all of those. Either way, this helped a bit so thank you <3

Yeah :/
Like I do love him but a lot of the time I really don't like him. And I do try to approach him in the right way, at the right time and it just...doesn't really seem to make a difference

I'd have more luck summoning Satan than I'd have getting my dad to open up about his feelings
This would be good advice if he was behaving this way because of circumstance, unfortunately it's just his personality. It ebbs and flows but he's always more or less grumpy

I'm always so intentional with how I ask questions too like "do you think that you could maybe, at some point, possibly, when you feel like it, help me with [blank]"
At the right time when he's not in a shit mood and even then he'll act like you're an idiot for even asking in the first place

Out of all my family he's actually nicest to me, which is not to say that he's nice but just less harsh typically.
He's getting grumpier and meaner with age though. Sometimes I'll ask a simple question and he either ignores me or just yells. Quite the charmer, my dad...

I mean yeah, fair

I've known a few people like that and I don't think that's what this was but then again I have never, and probably will never understand my father so maybe...
He has been extra dick-ish lately though

First time I heard about it I was like ohh... there's all sorts of people huh...

I'm only like 5 kgs away. It's fine. I can fix it...
As long as I can avoid falling into a bingе cycle. Which means patience and moderate rеstriсtion. I can be patient and smart about this. I can be patient

A Psalm for the Wild-Built by Becky Chambers(+the sequel) is a slow soft read that made me feel better about just existing. It connects with me on such a mundane but genuine human level and it's very dear to me. I know some people found it boring but I loved it very much

I cycle through all 3. For the past 2 years it's mostly been books but lately I've been in a slump and I've started liking tv shows more again. For a while I couldn't focus on them at all and would just zone out

Going from "I wonder if they like me" to "I wonder if I'm ever going to truly like someone again"(platonically, but romantically too I guess)

I am 100% the problem but I don't know how to fix it