the level of insecurity is vomit inducing, idk what to do about this anymore.

i'm sure i'm forgetting a lot of stuff, but yeah, can't wait to meet the person at the other end of 2025. a much more capable person i hope. just wanna be someone i can depend on.

100% came to terms with being aromantic. oh a surprising interest in furries (not that surprising really, mental gymnastics from petplay to furry is merely a brief period of hesitation and shame). oh i read a lot more this year! mostly academicy stuff, but i got into light novels too.

started asking questions during lectures in a hall full of people, volunteered for multiple events in school, danced in public (once, lol). got to know myself a lot better, fueled by convos with chinelo. really leaned into my transness, dropped the lesbian label as a result.

also i socialised a lot more, tried out so many fun study methods, got a gold and silver medal in karate, went for that event despite training from home and still got a medal! found my own irl queer community, got almost-straight-A's and then got the straight A's!

no cos my emotions? volatile af, i wanted to do away with them sooo bad, and yeah i had been working on them for the longest but not much changed, but from when i turned 24 it feltt like relatively smooth sailing? and 25 it's like who is this chill guy lol is it the frontal lobe they speak of?

never used this browser until now. absolutely blown away [by the tts. everything else sucks]

gotcha

only time will tell, but i have a good feeling~

lololol

rawr

plus the fact that it's hardly ever the other way around.