this process is emotional every year because Christmas is such a huge and special thing for my family and it’s tough being so far from them, but this year it’s extra difficult. So I’m choosing to decorate now and take joy in it, because she’d want me to 🥰

I have such fond memories of decorating for christmas with my nan, she had gorgeous glass ornaments and she’d make me into a tinsel fairy

when she went into the dementia home we got her a tree and she’d constantly put it up/take it down (bc dementia) and decorating made her so happy each time ❤️

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I promise today won’t be all downers, I just needed to get this out because I’m already feeling very overwhelmed with people’s messages and the love sent my way. I’m excited to celebrate, but it’s also difficult to balance that with all the other emotions going on 🖤

she was in dementia care for 8 years and I’ve only seen her once in that time. I spent a wonderful afternoon with her in the home, having tea and biscuits and laughing with her at her nonsense stories. I missed her terribly when I left England. I love her so dearly and will miss her more now 💜

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thank you!! :)