i feel like the worst version of myself around my family

ive drawn for so long but the efforts feels like it amounts to nothing like i should know more, have tried more, done more but ive done nothing

should i just stop existing i dont want to be in the same house as her anymore i feel like nothing but a disappointment

i cant even find anything i want to remotely do outside of art, im paralyzed marinating in my thoughts idk what im doing

how did i make so much when i was still in school now im out and i cant even make half of what i did at the quality i did and i have all the time in the world

numbers dictate how i feel about my existence, not in the type where i chase everythjng thats popular to achieve it but in the way i feel overwhelmed and paralyzed while trying to try somewhat draw whats popular and stuff i kinda like and being a whiny bitch about things not working

idk i just like things 🧍‍♀️but i dont feel like i like anything enough

hey 🫷🤓

I think im just butthurt LOL i enjoy drawing other ppls i dont really care if i dont get more than like a stickman LOL i think its just ??is integrity idk what word