Terrifying Girls Highschool
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I keep pretending to look for something that I can't seem to find. Ellie alt. You know who. It's the last Ellie left
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moisturizer ran. told my feelings to a friend. got rejected even though it wasnt a request to date, yet it was a very romantic message id sent. dramatic tonight. cried anyway. i think im too dramatic, just fundamentally
November 12, 2025 at 4:13 AM
moisturizer ran. told my feelings to a friend. got rejected even though it wasnt a request to date, yet it was a very romantic message id sent. dramatic tonight. cried anyway. i think im too dramatic, just fundamentally
i want to cry tonight but i just moisturized my face and itll mess up everything. I always think i wanna cry but i hesitate to cuz i dont want to make a scene. even if im not doing it for attention, it is as if it *becomes* about seeking attention unless i constantly scold myself and plead to stop
November 12, 2025 at 3:07 AM
i want to cry tonight but i just moisturized my face and itll mess up everything. I always think i wanna cry but i hesitate to cuz i dont want to make a scene. even if im not doing it for attention, it is as if it *becomes* about seeking attention unless i constantly scold myself and plead to stop
Killing myself isnt a thing id do because i dont want to feel sad anymore, it would be the ultimate cathartic moment. Being sad feels so *good* in a way that the ego hates but is addicted to, it stimulates, releases pleasure endorphins against my will. dying would be the ultimate expression of this
October 29, 2025 at 4:15 AM
Killing myself isnt a thing id do because i dont want to feel sad anymore, it would be the ultimate cathartic moment. Being sad feels so *good* in a way that the ego hates but is addicted to, it stimulates, releases pleasure endorphins against my will. dying would be the ultimate expression of this
feeling really upset and defeatist tonight but im just gonna do the shit i need to do and then go to sleep. i dont know if i really have the power to end these patterns
October 29, 2025 at 1:47 AM
feeling really upset and defeatist tonight but im just gonna do the shit i need to do and then go to sleep. i dont know if i really have the power to end these patterns
being haunted by the ghosts of past misdeeds (or percieved misdeeds) where trying to argue with them or reframe them seems to only pull me deeper into a brainhole and ignoring them just makes me feel extra guilty. I feel like a detached, bemused observer fairly often so this is exhausting yet silly
October 28, 2025 at 1:56 AM
being haunted by the ghosts of past misdeeds (or percieved misdeeds) where trying to argue with them or reframe them seems to only pull me deeper into a brainhole and ignoring them just makes me feel extra guilty. I feel like a detached, bemused observer fairly often so this is exhausting yet silly
Got my nipples pierced so 86 the suicide order for now and lets see how this goes
October 23, 2025 at 2:16 PM
Got my nipples pierced so 86 the suicide order for now and lets see how this goes
I love you
October 22, 2025 at 11:15 PM
I love you
its odd. Thinking of myself as a corpse gets me way more excited than anything else. I lie in bed thinking about it and i have to keep from moaning. It would feel so great being dead
October 22, 2025 at 11:07 PM
its odd. Thinking of myself as a corpse gets me way more excited than anything else. I lie in bed thinking about it and i have to keep from moaning. It would feel so great being dead
im 27 now which means killing myself at least has some poeticism to it. Another lost to the 27 club! I think im gonna do it soon
October 22, 2025 at 9:57 AM
im 27 now which means killing myself at least has some poeticism to it. Another lost to the 27 club! I think im gonna do it soon
I gotta either never open my mouth again or just stop being this horrible drop in my stomach anytime I feel a little embarassed about what i say
October 19, 2025 at 12:19 AM
I gotta either never open my mouth again or just stop being this horrible drop in my stomach anytime I feel a little embarassed about what i say
Killing myself is back on the table once again
October 14, 2025 at 2:27 AM
Killing myself is back on the table once again
woke up feeling like i wanna scream
October 12, 2025 at 10:31 PM
woke up feeling like i wanna scream
everyone loves me
October 9, 2025 at 6:04 AM
everyone loves me
being trans is too hard and scary but detransitioning is way way worse
October 9, 2025 at 5:35 AM
being trans is too hard and scary but detransitioning is way way worse
Is she just like this on the inside or is the writer like actually that bad. i think the answer might be both?
October 9, 2025 at 4:16 AM
Is she just like this on the inside or is the writer like actually that bad. i think the answer might be both?
I have a sister now too. But I know she'll exhaust herself or I'll hurt her. It's only a matter of time.
October 9, 2025 at 3:56 AM
I have a sister now too. But I know she'll exhaust herself or I'll hurt her. It's only a matter of time.
Ive always been jealous of the groomed and raped ppl I know cuz at least they mattered enough to become objects of desire
October 9, 2025 at 3:53 AM
Ive always been jealous of the groomed and raped ppl I know cuz at least they mattered enough to become objects of desire
I think I want all my friends to tell me they love me and to let me go and come to my suicide and they can do their eulogies after im gone
October 9, 2025 at 3:30 AM
I think I want all my friends to tell me they love me and to let me go and come to my suicide and they can do their eulogies after im gone
i want to die and life is not worth living in the longterm
October 9, 2025 at 3:02 AM
i want to die and life is not worth living in the longterm
I keep remembering im a bad person and that i have to kill myself
October 8, 2025 at 11:56 PM
I keep remembering im a bad person and that i have to kill myself
I wish i was a my little pony. If i had money i would commission my own ponysona
October 8, 2025 at 10:57 PM
I wish i was a my little pony. If i had money i would commission my own ponysona
can you buy a sexuality and upload it to yourself
October 8, 2025 at 10:32 PM
can you buy a sexuality and upload it to yourself
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October 7, 2025 at 7:49 PM