good stuff indeed

still in awe of your crochet talents and always your beauty 🖤🌜💫

my fear.

everyone else wouldn't notice until days later. and that's terrifying and unfortunate to me, like my intrusive thoughts are worsened by it. im truly no longer intertwined in any friend group in a routine way, and everyone's lives are parallel to mine. this not only is saddening, but perpetuates-

it's scary to think that if I go missing, genuinely the one who'd notice first would be my supervisor, because she'd notice I wouldn't be working within half a day. she'd be blowing up my phone by noon. then it'd probably by my partner if I dont answer their texts/calls by nighttime. but that's it.

my coworkers and my partner maybe once or twice a week (if im lucky). given this, my paranoia is worsened by the simple facts of my life circumstances, since if I disappeared likely the only locals who would notice in a timely manner are my coworkers. because they see me the most.

people barely come to my house, and it's often only for a given purpose. if I want someone to hang out here, I have to almost always be the one to create the plan, reach out, and sometimes drive or ensure there is safe transport. most weeks, the only physical people i know that i encounter are-

ABSOLUTELY CHEFFING UP AN ENTIRE MENU'S WORTH OF FEAST 🖤🖤🖤😍🤩😍