THE SNACKRIFICE IS ACCEPTED. /With gusto/.

I AM!!!! SCRUNGLY BEAN IN YOUR POCKET, extremely throwable. ✨

For reeeeal. So grateful for the solidarity from buds that are the same and geeet it, lol. Just sort of exhausted waving at each other from afar as we get swept up in the vortex of time. 🤘

I have a bad habit of getting a message and being like "ah I don't have the proper headspace to give that the nessa' attention it deserves right now, so I'll just come back to that later!" But the moment it's out of sight it's out of mind. Then WHOOPS it's been two weeks and I'm embarrassed.

The ideal situation!!! I'd much prefer to donate them if I can. I have this trio of sea turtles I won from crane games over 15 years ago from an arcade in Jersey, and somehow they're in such solid shape!

I can't remember basic useful information, names of things, nifty facts, but I can recall how and where I acquired each and every one of my stuffed buds.

THANKYOU BUD, all trying to make some actual progress together! ; ;

TL;DR, I'm learning a lot, untangling so much childhood bullshit while I can. It's never too late.

In addition to meds, I'm making an effort with talk therapy. If there's anything I've been made to learn this year, is that just because you escape a bad situation doesn't mean it didn't leave damage. Damage that doesn't magically go away just because you "got older" like I guess I'd always hoped.

I need to get back there so bad now that I'm trying to get my hot mess of a life in order. It's a peak site, I'm just being fussy about uploading my backlog, lol. It will be such a DAY.

S a m e, I'm finding a lot of help in the combination of meds and talk therapy. I was so nervous but it's making a world of difference. 🥹

Thank you bud, I do sincerely appreciate it! Working on all my finicky issues, be able to be a better friend, better person who is less like a shuddering snappy chihuahua at most times, lol.

It's obscene and nonsensical my anxiety. I'll suddenly wake up with a sharp jolt in my stomach, shuddered from any attempt at sleep with fear that I am "behind on work" and "need to make a post." The more days I lose to recovery, the more I fret about what needs doing. A vicious cycle.

m a y b e 💖

still night scampering, but friend Berry is there

It is wild how much those little things make such a huge difference. I know for certain that sadly I'm a "out of sight out of mind" person. Needing to be reminded certain things by outside factors because my inside factor (me) is /unhelpful/.