I dont know what to do but I think... I think I'm going to just go back to being my biological identity for a while. Im going to step away from here, and make something new for myself. See how it fits.
I dont even know if this is the right thing to do. But it's the only idea I've got... so... yeah..

I've struggled with thoughts and ideation of being dead, I find no joy in anything that used to bring me joy, I don't even believe I am Trans or can be trans anymore at this point.

I am lost. Completely and utterly lost. And it's been happening for over a month now.

Since then, I've been mentally struggling to even do things I love, I've been questioning my entire life: my gender, my religious views, what I enjoy(ed), my identity as a whole. My psychologist now believes I'm having an identity crisis.

And I am not okay.

I attempted to leave the work place and go to a new job, however my job wrote me up saying my behavior was unprofessional after being assaulted, my mental health decreased dramatically. Because of the write ups I recieved I was disqualified from my new job.

My therapist believes that I've completely detached myself from the situation that happened and honestly... I don't know how to "attach" myself back to it and actually process the trauma. When asked if I'm okay, I just say: "it's just another day". Like that shit is normal to me...

I am only aware of this reference because of Jontron.