sorry for the rant, but i hope this might explain some things in case i just dip someday lol

it gets twice as frustrating considering how much i need to regress to cope nowadays; cant go a day without it, voluntary or involuntarily - im autistic as hell and a regular day working a regular job exhausts me to the point i can barely move once im back home. age regression is my only way to cope

even now im still considering not hanging around ageplay spaces anymore, and some days even nsfw content in general because little me gets so unbelievably disgusted and upset by me feeling arousal, as if i am not a grown ass man having needs :/

i used to oversexualize myself and my regression because in my mind, no one would have wanted to take care of me unless they got something out of it, in this case sexual favors. worst of all? i was right a lot of the time. left me with HUGE issues that im still trying to work through

AND a fucking machine. AND a man who straps me down to both of them.

it somehow feels like this

yearning to be drilled into the mattress and laughed at for being such a good baby and submitting so quickly from just a few thrusts 😔

omfg i mean i occasionally did get some other trans guys but they were all looking for serious romantic relationships, which is totally fine and cool but boy im just trying to slob on your knob :(((