I'm not a monster, I'm emotionally dysregulated, I need help and support and to ask for it properly. I need treatment. I'm afraid of being rejected. But if I get rejected, these people aren't for me and they'll hurt me. I deserve a good life and to recover.

Thank you for reading.

I'm surrounded by nice people who care about me and who help me. But it doesn’t change the state I’m in right now.

I've hurt a lot of loved ones, and I eat myself alive for it. It's hard to let go of guilt and to give space to acceptance, protecting others and, most importantly, myself.

I'm afraid of the stigma and being seen as a monster to be avoid at all cost. And I'm so pained that my friends and family haven't recognized my emotional dysregulation; that psychiatrists and psychologists at the mental hospital never diagnosed me. That I had no name for it, and no instruments.