Really the perfect partner. Why can't I just be content and suck it up? Why am I so affectionate? Why am I to much? I wish I could stuff my feelings into a pit and then rot forever.

I'm not blaming him, it's not their fault at all. I know it's not mine either. I'm just really fucking sad that this is even happening in the first place. Why does it have to be the one thing I enjoy doing the most? I feel so awful. I can't even complain when he's the best person I have ever dated.

I dont know if I am over reacting, I dont know if I need to get over myself, I dont know what the right thing to do in this situation is. It seems silly, but kisses mean everything to me and not getting them is hurting my feelings and my self esteem.