Fuck Gavin Newsom.

Fuck Gavin Newsom.

Fuck Gavin Newsom.

I'm not looking for absolution.
I'm sad and tired and I hate being alive.
I want the pain to stop.

Likewise, I'm persistently aware that I am the only one at fault for hurting people.

I've been trying to get better, but it's wholly debatable if that has materialized at all.

My overwhelming despair, fractured mental health, and inability to discern love from abuse has hurt me, and the people who otherwise cared for me.