So much has changed in half a year. Life isn't any easier, in some ways it is harder, but I am happier now. The lows are shorter and the highs are more common. It's been a long time since i last felt so hopeful.

It is strange just how quickly life can change. 1 month ago I was surrounded by hypocritical, manipulative people trying to change me into something i never wanted to be. Now I have such wonderful supportive people all around me, encouraging me to become my best self. I almost cry thinking about it.

Meeting so many wonderful people. Also, I am learning who I am as a transfem. I joined up with a group that I never would have had the courage to join before, kinksters. Learned so much about myself pre & post transition. Discovering that I am a soft dom, and looking forward to exploring that.

Started therapy today. Dug up some bad memories, but the therapist was very kind and responsive. I really think this will help me become a better person.

Wonderful people at the LGBT community center.

There's a strong LGBT+ community in the nearby city. I'm working on reaching out and getting involved with them. While I am at it, I'm getting back into tabletop gaming and looking to visit the local game stores. It feels good to be getting out and about again.

Working with a speech therapist now. Such a big goal of mine is to have a fem voice.

Ugh, sick and tired of being sick and tired.

It feels strange to be welcomed into lgbtqia+ spaces. I spent so much of my life as a cis straight male, supportive of them, but from the outside. I haven't been trans for very long, and to be around people who have been open and struggled for so long, I feel like an imposter.

Not easy to cut someone out of your life, especially when they were once a trusted friend. However it becomes necessary when they become someone that drains your energy and damages your mental health.

Got a couple of skorts, and absolutely love them. Not wearing them out un public yet, but I canw enjoy wearing them around the house.

Got my new puppy, she is such a sweetheart. Older dog isn't very happy with sharing her home with the puppy. I know it will take some time, but they'll get along great.

Getting a new puppy on Sunday. I really hope her and older doggo get along.

So tired this morning. Unfortunately, I have work and plenty of thing to get done, so I can't curl up and nap like I really want to.

I say this a lot in irl, and I figured I'd share it here. Some advice one of my professors gave me. "How do you eat and elephant? One bite at a time." A project or task can seem overwhelming and feel impossible. Don't focus on the size, but what you can do. Each little piece adds up.

Keeping up with what's happening in the USA is exhausting and depressing. I want to stop paying attention, but i know i need to. Can't be prepared if I don't know whats going on.

I miss playing Warhammer and D&D.

A big part of my job is preventing waterway pollution and soil erosion. So much of what is going is bad and has horrifying implications, but professionally the removal of environmental protections makes what I do seem pointless. Not going to stop doing my part regardless.

I'm new to bluesky. I want to reach out and be able to connect with people. With how things are for trans people in the US, I don't want to go out while I can't pass as fem.