I am so unbelievably happy 🥰

The rope left marks on my skin which serve to remind me of that feeling that I will chase again

And then the inability to move, the urge to struggle against the restraint, the pinch when it won't give, forced to hold the position, open and vulnerable

I expected the tying process to be just a means to an end, but it was actually quite meditative to repeat the same motions and watch the tie take shape