At this point, we're definitely together, but it's still so early that I think we're kinda testing the waters. So far, tho, everything just feels warm, comforting, and sweet.

I want to take care of him, and he wants to be there for me. We're both a little sad, but together, it feels healing... <:')

He was so gentle... so careful with me... I normally don't like mouth kisses or being eaten out by anyone, but with him, I liked it.

I didn't think about how slimy kisses felt, even though he kissed with tongue, or how overly sensitive I usually am down there.

It all just... felt nice.

part 18

looking juicy cadogan

The rest of the dream was actually a little distressing, but I was pretty content for that one small moment lmao

But sometimes, I do want sex. And when we fuck, I want it to be the most feral, most horniest sex I've ever had.

I want to desire them so fucking carnally that I find myself chewing on my pillow at the thought of them coming over because GOD what a feeling to be alive for.

Fuck.

I want respect. I want someone who I can trust. Someone who I can rely on. An equal. Because I want to be independent, and I want them to be independent as well.

I want someone who can live comfortably without me, but still choose to be with me because they truly WANT me in their life, not need me.

How do you ask for things like this when you've made it a point to physically distance yourself in all your interactions?

When you don't feel comfortable getting close to anyone, even when you're desperately yearning for it?