of failure keeps me failing

but what am i supposed to do? quit?

cant do this shit anymore

same can be said about my grades

is the easier option because the other one means certain death if i fail

i keep thinking if only my computer wasnt so slow if only my mouse wasnt fucked up if only i had done this and that but none of it really matters when ive already run out of time and i hate myself for knowing this even when i do have time and yet doing nothing to fix it

im going to die this way im going to keep putting it off until it breaks me

its a disease really but i am so sick

continuing to care despite myself

and yet im here

i cannot be assed to care when there is nothing worth working for

and face things

no energy to sleep

go to sleep but i cannot

but really whats the point if theres no real future