he looks like he eated a bees...

i could go on forever with all of this but ill stop here, im sorry this was such a long thread, it probs wont get much attention anyway 😭😭

-without feeling like it complicates me being transmasc. ive learned that i dont owe 100% masculinity to those around me and that i am still in fact trans. ive known since i was a child and i know even moreso now.

ive always hated the term femboy with a passion, its all about fetishization and i just dont fw it. a few years back i found the label "roseboy" and almost instantly it clicked with me. while majority of the time irl i present myself as masc, i absolutely love dressing up in dollish girly shit-

and to go with my gender nonconformity i have a bonus flag, while i am transmasc, over the past few years i have been learning to embrace my femininity without needing to take back female labels.

it keeps me safe, im happy, and i even feel loved back in some ways. what can a real person do for me that a fictional character cant aside from planes of physicalities? jack shit thats what 🙄 LMAO

-that i was probably chasing for something real to cope with what i couldn't have. ive grown out of that need and headspace and since then have felt more comfortable with myself. ive only really felt genuine attraction to fictional characters and honestly? i have no shame for it.

-and honestly? those experiences alone have deterred me away from wanting anything real. furthermore i look at myself now and kinda realize that i dont feel attraction to real people, and that i might never have to begin with,-

after a whole mental battle with myself that felt like ages, i can accept and embrace the fact that i really am ficto. i look back on all my past relationships and realize i wasn't brought joy or really felt loved despite the efforts i put in. i was used and neglected to horrific extents-

you can tell im normal abt this dude
(last piece was inspired by Junko Mizunos art ^_^)

some more stuffs i think i have one more thread to add to this eek