No questions asked. No matter what it is, we'll have a great story for later

Totally get it. But no matter how bad it gets sometimes, as long as you have good days (or moments), you're still healing. Just keep being you, keep creating as long as it's helping you, and be kind to yourself. You got this!

If it helps, I recently had a very similar experience. There's no right or wrong way to feel about it. And as my therapist says "healing isn't linear". It's okay to have good days and bad days.